Life Downside Up

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Sun, 08 Jul 2012 14:27:10 -0400

My fight.

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 21:53:10 -0400

I’m fighting. Fighting to keep being optimistic. Fighting to keep my head up. Fighting that someone will help me feel better. Fighting to not feel like I’m never getting better. Fighting.

I need the reassurance it is going to be okay, and I’m going to get better. But right now, I don’t feel like that’s happening. And I’m fighting it.

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Sat, 23 Jun 2012 20:19:42 -0400

I went through a lot of stuff a few years back to where I shouldn’t be here. I turned my life back around and that’s what lifedownsideup means.

She’s gone. 1230am last night. June 13th, 2012. Visitation is on Friday and the funeral will...

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 16:25:04 -0400

She’s gone. 1230am last night. June 13th, 2012. Visitation is on Friday and the funeral will be Saturday. She’s free of pain now, that’s all that matters.

Why does He keep people here when they are in pain? Why does He keep someone here when the family...

Tue, 12 Jun 2012 20:40:14 -0400

Why does He keep people here when they are in pain? Why does He keep someone here when the family knows it is time? Let her go. Please.

One day at a time.

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 12:19:09 -0400

It’s been a while since I last posted or even just wrote. Let me start with 2 and a half weeks ago. Grandma was lifeflighted in from Nebraska because they couldn’t do a procedure on her from the cancer in Nebraska. She is now in a hospice house, dying. They give her til the weekend and I don’t know how to handle that. The second part, the heart condition I told you about…may have in fact been a tumor on my kidneys. One of the most rare, misdiagnosed tumors. A doctor said I was the classic case for it, but as soon as it is removed I will be back to normal again. I’m waiting on the phone call from the doctor today. If I don’t have the tumor then I’ll be back to square one. I want the tumor. I know that sounds bad but its easily fixed and I would only be in the hospital for a little while. I’ll post more when I get that phone call.

If you only knew.

Mon, 28 May 2012 00:32:51 -0400

It’s 4:03 and I can’t sleep without you next to me. I toss and turn like the sea. If I drown tonight, bring me back to life, breathe your breath in me, the only thing that I still believe in is you.

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Thu, 24 May 2012 18:39:38 -0400

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Tue, 22 May 2012 13:26:54 -0400

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Sun, 20 May 2012 22:38:39 -0400

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Tue, 15 May 2012 14:29:57 -0400

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love...

Sun, 13 May 2012 23:30:08 -0400

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride. I love you because I know no other way then this. So close that your hand, on my chest, is my hand. So close, that when you close your eyes, I fall asleep.

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Mon, 07 May 2012 03:20:34 -0400

Good guys.

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 23:39:07 -0400

I’m falling harder for you as the days go on. Who knew that this was what good meant.

Him.

Thu, 26 Apr 2012 21:58:58 -0400

He’s great. Opens the car door, makes me dinner, even paid a speeding ticket that he had nothing to do with. He says I’m beautiful when I know I look awful. I know he’s always going to be there when I need him most. How did I find you?

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Wed, 18 Apr 2012 00:05:10 -0400

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Tue, 17 Apr 2012 01:01:48 -0400

"It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re 17 and planning for someday and then quietly,..."

Tue, 17 Apr 2012 01:01:29 -0400

““It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re 17 and planning for someday and then quietly, without you ever really noticing, someday is today, and then someday is yesterday. And this is your life.””

:)

Tue, 17 Apr 2012 00:22:54 -0400

You never know when someone will just walk into your life and make it all better. I wasn’t looking, and they walked right in.

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Tue, 17 Apr 2012 00:06:01 -0400